why?

Why do I have to feel this way,
even if I don’t have to feel this thing?

Why do I think of you every night,
even if I shouldn’t be thinking of you?

Why do I have to see you to complete my day,
even if I find it hard to see you daily?

Why do I like you very much,
even if you’re not that good looking?

Why do I force myself on you,
even if you have someone else on your heart now?

Why do I have to long for you each day,
even if I know that you’ll always be away from me?

Why do I love you very much,
even if we’re not meant for each other?

I wish you could tell me why!

the feeling remains

I kept on watching you vigilantly,
wherever you are I spy you patiently,
in the hallway, corridor, lobby and even on the streetside,
but I still don't know until when I'll hide,
the extreme desire I kept inside,
inside my heart and inside my mind.
---
I wonder if you ever tried to take discernment,
of all my vexing and awkward movements,
coz lately you act so differently,
you even make unlikeable demeanor apparently,
I don't know if I'm going to believe it,
or is it just part of my discomfit?
---
Whatever it be I will not vanish this feeling,
inside my heart that I've been longing,
but I comprehend that I'm only up to the fence,
no more to regret nor to be incense,
but the sweetness will remain delightful -
forever endearing, cheerful and hopeful.

kay hirap pala

Sa nagdaang kapanahunan sana'y batid mong sinisinta kita
Araw'y di pinalalampas kung di ka napaliligaya
Bawat saglit namang di ka nasusulyapan
Ay para bagang kay laking pagkukulang
---
Subalit ako'y pawang di napapansin
Kahit anong aking gawin upang magkalapit
Pagkat para sa iyo ako'y isang dayuhan lamang
Na nasasalubong mo sa iyong pagdaraan
---
Kaya't sinubok kong mawaglit ka sa isipan
Mag-isip ng ibang bagay na mas kagigiliwan
Mga bagay na papawi sa aking lumbay
Ngunit kay hirap pala na sa isip ko ika'y mawalay.

sa piling mo

'Di ko mamalas na dagling kalimutan ka
pagka't sa aking isipan ay ikaw lang talaga
Ang maamong ngiti ng iyong labi at
mala-anghel mong pisngi
Nagbibigay sigla sa bawat araw na ika'y
natatanglaw
Nawa'y iyong mawari and aking kagalakan
sa bawat pagkakataong ika'y natatanaw.
---
MInsan sa isang pagkakataon
sana'y ako'y nasa piling mo
Umaagapay sa iyong kanlungan
upang yakapin ka.
Sa piling mo'y
wala nang mahihiling pa
wala nang masasabi pa
kundi sana'y mapawalang hanggan
ang minsan na ito.
---
Sana'y mayakap sa gabing ito
na tila ika'y aking pag-aari
At dadamhim ko ang iyong mga hawak
na kay tagal ko nang inaasam-asam
Sana'y maramdaman sa iyo
ang kaligayahang inaasam ko
dahil sa piling mo
wala nang mahihiling pa.

beauty and ugly

Gaze at me and you will see an ugly silhouette,
but quest my midst and you will see a beauty within.
Look at my countenance and you will see inferiority,
but look at my heart and you will see great superiority.
---
Reflect on a mirror and you will see fairness,
but touch your heart and you will see formidable dirt.
Face on a profound water and you will see tenderness,
but seek yourself and you will never find it.
Why?
Because you never try to adore God's creation,
you never appreciate some of His masterpieces,
you only praise the charm of your looks,
and tend to forget the pleasure of camaraderie.
---
One day you'll wake up and find yourself
in the middle of nowhere.
Nothing visible, the entire vicinity is dim
Nobody to talk to, nothing to entice the gloom.
---
But try to love all the good fruits around you,
never find ugliness in everything you perceive.
You will see yourself and evreything magnificently alluring,
in this paradise of reality - where beauty is within and
ugliness is cast out.

to forget you

You know that I love you so much,
You know that I care for you that much,
You know that I'll do everything for you,
You know that I always think of you,
You know that I want you to be with me,
You know that the letters you receive comes from me,
You know that I am willing to help you in your difficulties,
You know that you can share with me your anxieties,
You know that I like your pretty face,
and you know that I love you for what you are
but...
I know that you don't really love me so,
I know that you don't care for me,
I know that you'll do nothing for me,
I know that you never think of me,
I know that you don't want to be with me,
I know that you don't like the letters coming from me,
I know that you won't help me in your difficulties,
I know you won't share with me your anxieties,
I know that you don't like my ugly face,
and I know that you'll never love me, in anyway or anyhow.
So maybe I'll just have to forget you,
even if I still love you very much.

in heart, in mind

There's an extreme feeling within my heart,

that somehow I can't comprehend.

I can't figure out where this feeling derives.

It seems to be blur, obscure and dimly dull,

But I'm hoping that I will soon realize,

What this feeling truly means,

Coz it might be the key and answer

To all the questions I have in mind.